Originally Posted by Annelies
I don't think words can explain my fascination. My father was absent for the majority of my life so I always felt alone coming up. I didn't have friends in elementary school or in middle school and didn't meet my now-best friends until my final years of high school. Right after I met them is about the time I met Anne. Her name had been circling the back of my mind for such a long time, it wasn't until mid-2009 that I decided to look her up and see what she was all about.*
I found out she had a diary. I loved learning about World War II so when I found out someone had kept a diary during the war, I was immediately interested. First I tried pirating it - which I regret. Good thing I never found a torrent because there is nothing like holding her diary in your hands, sitting down and reading her amazingly beautiful writings and to think she was just a teenager! I love it. The best thing about it at the time was the fact that I was 16 years old, only one year older than Anne after she died. I felt like being near the same age really connected us. I felt like she was talking directly to ME and keeping me updated on her life. After I finished I was SO SAD because I knew she was dead and that, that was it.... This person I grew attached to.. this beautiful girl who talked about her dreams in life, classmates, struggles and family is dead. I've cried myself to sleep on several occasions and since then have swore to her that I'd finish Catherine and dedicated each book (4 books) to herself, Margot (her sister), Edith (her mother) and Otto (her father).
In spite of her death, I found Anne and I to be alike in many ways. We share "faults" and we share strengths which get me through life on a day-to-day basis. She inspired me to become an author and to go to school. She's so strong and so smart.. and I felt like I was just this dumbass because I've been failing the majority of my classes. I felt like if she could be this great then I could to. I felt like she was telling me that I'm not some loser and that I could be something. I could be whatever I want to be! I could change my life and be smart like her. I could be strong like her.. she filled me with the inspiration I needed to get my life together.*
I'm never going to let people forget about her. I live my life in dedication of her and have changed my middle name to prove it. I want her to know how much I love her. I hope she watches me from time to time because I'm going to do allot of things for her and when I die we're probably going to have a talk about everything..
I know for a fact I missed things and that I could have explained some of this better than I did but it's 11PM and I have class in the morning.*
I noticed I still have my custom "Annelies Marie Frank" title. Could I keep it pretty please?
(If you don't want me to have it, you can remove it I won't complain lol)
I see, well thank you for sharing that with me, I definitely understand how you feel. The first time I heard about Anne I was probably 11. My girl cousin had to read it for college and I was very immature so I had NO IDEA who Anne was, I had never read it and never hear of it otherwise so I judged a book by it's cover; I simply thought it was a cheesy novel made to look like a diary (don't kill me, as I said I was very immature and i do regret being disrespectful, age 11 was when I was the most stupid, it definitely was the year with the most stupidity.) she had the version titled "The Diary of Anne Frank," an as I understand ( I could be wrong, you'd know more about it than me) there are 2 versions, err, at least it was released under two different titles is what I'm getting at, first one titled "Diary of a young girl" and the other being, of course "Diary of Anne Frank." I will say that your mission to raise awareness of Anne did succeed in my case as your fascination led me to do some minor research on her. I had already known her father was the one who had the book published but I thought she was killed by the Nazis, I never knew her and her sister Margot died of typhus. Also I was able to find out that when Otto first tried to publish the book he was "advised" to remove some parts of Anne's original manuscript before publication was to be granted. Apparently they liked that there was indeed a record/diary of someone kept by the Nazis to describe the ordeal but were uneasy that being a diary, she wrote about some of the changes she was experiencing (as all 15 year old girls do). Then I found out Otto releleased the manuscript the way Anne had it, including previous omissions. What really bugs me is that some people believe the diary to be inauthentic, as something Otto himself penned, or had helped her write, or that it couldn't have been Anne's writing at all (though I believe forensics proved Anne to be the true author, thankfully). I do say that your quest to honor and keep the memory of this remarkable being alive is very special, and may you keep trying to raise awareness. What I would question (not in a bad way, more like a "wow that's intense" way) is why your middle name is "Annelies" and rather not "Frank" as there is an obvious gender difference in the names, but hey, like I said I'm not dissing your name choice and if anything I think it's a rather unique way to bond Anne with yourself forever to ultimately achieve this awareness mission you've set upon yourself. Once again thank you for sharing that info with me and good luck with your books, I'll be on the look out.