I am truly sorry about your loss :'( I too experience similar pain to yours. My father past on the day of his birthday. At that time, I was working and I was to busy to call him and wish him happy birthday. I told myself that I'd call him as soon as I get home from work. Never thought that my brother called and told me that he's gone. As
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said, your father loved you more than life itself. I know it's hard and they do say time will heal. But every time I see a father and a son or when I watch tv/movie and I see a father and a son together. It brings a tear to my eye.
Your father would want you to be stronger and move on because life moves on. You will understand that through time.
My condolences to you and your family.
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Always remember and be proud of your father. He is truly an honorable man.