As a moderator, this is not something I can just allow on the forum because this is a very serious issue, and none of us (assuming) are professionally qualified to assist you with your situation, plus it opens the door for trolling which would then lead te thread right into the trash bin. We've already seen some trolling as early as the first page for example.
However, as a sympathetic human being who suffers from depression and wishes to die at times (even though I'm not suicidal, so Im basically stuck on Earth until the higher ups decide its my time to go) I can't leave this alone. As I said, we can give you the best advice we can, but none of it is a professional prescription, if you would like to seek out professional help, I would advise and welcome you to do so, however if you're like me who either a) cant afford it or 2) think alot of shrinks are more self indulged than in their patients, then I strongly suggest you take your life by the horns and ride that sumb**ch out until you take back your life that's rightfully yours. Trust me, I'm going on 2 1/2 years on bad depression but I'm hanging in there, don't give up. Take some of the ideas of previous posters or make your own, but don't just sit there, because even though you feel time stands still, it's passing you by. Personal experience